I've never considered myself to be a writer, definitely a thinker, but not a writer. But often times, I find myself lying awake at night, thinking, rehashing the day, going over my to-lists, trying to figure out what to do next, where to go, planning life, ...finally I have decided to just write about it to find out if I am the only one with a racing mind, or if others really are as crazy as me? What's funny though, is after all that thought, I find myself wanting to drop it all, buy a one way ticket, and just LIVE. Live without plans. Without a schedule. Without a purpose. To simply just live. See where life takes me. To explore the unknown. To think clearer. To breathe slower. To feel stronger. To love deeper. To live richer... I have this sense of there is a 'bigger purpose' for me out there. I'm not sure what it is, but it is there waiting for me to discover it. Having just turned 32, there are many societal pressure I am faced with: marriage, children, becoming a home owner, savings, investing... Some may think I am pretty far behind seems how I am single, childless, homeless... But I view this as part of my "Serendipit-Me." I have yet to discover who my husband is going to be, or how many children I am going to Mother, but in the mean time, I am gonna take on my dreams and drink freely and deeply from the cup of life. Feelings. Compassion. Exploration. Experience. Language. Travel. And thus begins my blog.
Back to reality. Turns out we all need to work as we have house payments, car payments, phone bills, internet bills, gas, groceries... Have you ever wondered what it is you would do if money were not an issue and you could do anything? ANYTHING?? Think about that for a good long minute. And now for another long minute.. or two. At first this seems like an easy question to answer, "Well I would travel. Volunteer. Spend time with my family." But at the end of the day, we would all crave a purpose. I have come up with what I would do. I would take pictures. Not that I have any training or even a camera that costs more than $150, but I would take pictures. I think I have a knack for catching people "in the moment." or a moment "in a moment". This must be the "older and wiser" in me...pheewf! signs I have matured. My dream existence would be to travel the world, take pictures of life unfolding before my eyes, learn bits and pieces of several languages, and sell them as wall hangings, greeting cards, and of course decorate my house in my version of Candyland. So why am I not doing it? Good question. I am going to find a way to make at least part of this happen. Step #1: Buy a good camera. I will do this before I leave Minneapolis.
Tonight, ponder what it is you would do. If you can dream it. You can do it.
